I know I haven't updated here in awhile. But I haven't had much to blog about as far as trying to get pregnant goes, seeing as how we aren't trying right now. I'm still not ready to go back to it.

But I guess I can give updates on other aspects of our life! Earlier this week, Kyle and I celebrated our 5th wedding anniversary!! And then a few days later was our 7 year anniversary of being together! Where does the time go?? We had a great day together though!!
Kyle works a lot. The ship is going out later this week, but only for a week. Then home for about a week, before the ship heads to the other side of the sound for it's shipyard period. They are going to be over there until at least the end of the year. Maybe longer. I'm still waiting to hear back about the daycare job. Apparently the have two 2nd interviews sometime this week, so no decision has been made. I'm keeping my fingers crossed that they liked me best!!

My parents are going to be here in just over a month!! I can't wait to show them the Seattle area!! They will be here for a week!

Anyways, other than that, we don't have much going on! Hope all is well with everyone else!

Not over it...

Just when I started to finally feel better about things, and think that I was over it, I realize I'm not. I found out yet another one of my friends is pregnant with #2. I had just gotten over finding out one of my friends was pregnant, then someone else gets pregnant. It's a never ending vicious cycle. And it makes it painfully obvious that I am not okay with not being pregnant. I hate this feeling so much. I wish I could just make it go away. I know that one day, somehow, Kyle and I are going to be amazing parents. I just wish I knew when that day will be.

Still nothing.

So I have STILL not heard back about my referral. But here's a secret. I'm okay with it. After two and half years of dealing with all of this that I am finally at a point of being ready for a break. I can't deal with it anymore. I don't want to. ::shrugs:: We'll take some time off, and then go back to trying again. But I don't know when.
Maybe it will happen on our break. Maybe not. I don't know. But I will say this. If it does happen, it was not because I "finally relaxed and stopped thinking about it". If it does happen, and I hear that from anyone, I will not be able to hold my tongue. Just so you know, if anyone would feel the need to tell me that.

Anyways, so that is that. I will try to post here and keep it updated with our lives. Not that it's anything exciting! Haha! Hope all is well!